Memory of the first day

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I’m in my junior year now, and I still sometimes clearly think of the thoughts in my mind at the time I left home, those fractions of past more or less constitute what I am now. They are like pieces of puzzles and maybe if I collected them carefully, I would be able to figure out the shape of my soul, personality and especially what I’m capable of and what I should do to live out my best possibility.

When I got on the bus and left for future, I slightly smelled a sense of tension. It’s the first day of my new semester, and which made it so special is that it’s my first time to live alone. I became a freshman that day and it was the day that a brand new life opened up.

Farewell, bye bye! Dear, I'll probably never come back again. All the efforts that I’ve made and all those beautiful little things are left behind, well packed in my memory and I was on my own unique journey. “I took the one less traveled by, and that has made all the difference.”<Robert Frost> De' ja vu, this familiar resolution still occupies a corner in my heart even until now. I’ve made up my mind since I was young that I would leave home far away for advanced education, but when it came true, it would be a little bit scary at the time you look back your former life and you find out at the instant those stressful gray days were gone and will never come back. And so as childhood. That’s why PETER PAN became such a beloved fairy tale, isn’t it?

My bus flies in the rain, cut off every white line sourced from the dark dark sky that drew by thunders. I once expected some unexpected small summits or caves on my trip to infinity, summits to reach and caves to search. That I'll always be at the helm, and hold up my rudder tight, to explore the deep deep… whatever you may think of. My world is stuffed with unrealistic ideal and adventure, you’re not gonna be intoxicated by. I always like the scene in the movie ”Totoro”, where there’s a monster bus running fast regardless of the trees that blocked the road and finally took the two sisters to their destination. And I’m now in the same situation. Scenes passed by through the window though it’s unclear after the pouring rain. Time goes by ignored that the blood-red needle of my watch has fallen behind. Smelled infinitely sanguinary even in the arms of this boundless white.

Just as I fell deep into my cranky thoughts, my bus left the high way, and took a turn of the well known Science Park and some passengers left on the way. They are maybe engineers, and even some small fraction of your computer is the result of their work. One of my cousins works here, and will I? I don’t know yet, whether I should spend my life doing those tricky experiments and calculating the costs. But I’ll have to calculate something anyway, life or debt.

Finally I arrive at my campus. I took a deep breath and step into this place that I’ve never dreamed of coming. I wondered if I said “OPEN SESAME” will God show me my way. Or maybe he’ve already gave me this mercy because I’m here on my way to university where it’s so close to the core of the power of knowledge. I wanna spread my wing though I cannot fly. I stretched my arms like I was addicted. I’m here to find a way to fulfill my dreams. To be the first dog that sees the colorful rainbow. People have all kinds of problems, And I’m here to find the answers. Or sometimes create some more, I mean.